Some days I have profound moments with God where I know He is speaking straight to me. It’s not in a different voice, it’s my voice affirming a truth from His Word.
Seasons come and go and I’m in a hard one. One that is requiring a lot of my time, energy, and attention. Emotional growth is one of the hardest parts of my journey so far. Connecting with my emotions, memories, hurts and pains. I don’t like it.
What I am learning in this time is God’s Presence in my life is deeper than I ever have felt Him before. Another layer, depth with my God, my Savior who promises to never leave me or forsake me.
I’d love to just have some comfort and an easy walk but to be honest I don’t really think about God being with me then. I think about how I am crushing it and keeping myself together.
So today, I’m spending time journaling and putting pieces together that feel painful but I’m seeing fruit. And the verse, John 8:32 comes to mind, “…then you will know the truth and the truth will set you free.” I kind of brush it off, because I have read this verse a million times praying it over myself usually in the form of freedom from anxiety. But today something new came and I want to share it with you.
Sometimes searching for the truth feels a little like detective work. But in this case God clarified for me I want you to experience the truth. Truth that is real no matter what’s going on. See freedom from anxiety is circumstantial. Stressors will come and I will deal with the anxiety again, and hopefully less overwhelming the next time.
But God says to me I want more:
I want you to experience my love.
I want you to experience my forgiveness.
I want you to experience my closeness.
I want you to experience my grace and compassion for you.
And experience comes from being with other people and allowing them to minister to you. Allowing them to speak over your life the truth when you are having a hard time holding onto it. And in this God shows us Himself, through people. And it can draw our eyes back to Him.
John 8:31 says, “So Jesus said to the Jews who had believed him, ‘If you abide in my word, you are truly my disciple…” from this verse I’m reminded of James 1:25, “But the one who looks into the perfect law, the law of liberty, and perseveres, being no hearer who forgets but a doer who acts, he will be blessed in his doing.” I don’t know about you, but I need help remembering.
Freedom comes from sitting with Jesus over and over and over until we finally experience who He truly is to us. And what I love is this is not an independent endeavor. People are a part of this process. Mine are a counselor, friends, mentors, and my husband.
Who are your people? Who are helping you experience who God really is? How are they teaching you? What connections are you making from these experiences?
Lord help us to see you for who You are and how You see us in return.