I like for God to affirm things in my life. Kind of like Gideon, if you really want me to pursue this show me a sign, I’ll put out the fleece and you make it wet or dry. You know.
Show me a sign Lord. Then another sign, because I’m not sure that was a clear enough.
Then maybe we don’t move at all, completely fearful we misheard God. Unsure if He even cares.
Oh boy. I am finite. I am vulnerable and desperate to be known and reassured.
Is it just me?
I love that even in this frustration with myself He is not the slightest. He sees this all working out, He sees all that I’m learning. He sees the knew connections I’m making and He will restore and make all these things work together.
Typically I like to know what God’s affirming, but is that the point? Are we supposed to move and then look up saying is that right God? Or do I go left? Do I serve you here or there? Do I love this person, or make time for this one? It can get very confusing.
What if He wants us to look up long enough so He can say I love you anyways.
I know You want to know. I know you need this affirmation from me, but what if I told you I love you. I love you, even if. I love you, and I’m proud you are making steps. Because once you get there you might face trouble, but if you know I love you… Oh daughter, if you know I love you, if you abide in that love, then that will make all the difference.
As you go about your day, think about how God is showing you He loves you. It’s everywhere. For me it is flowers, taking pictures, my kids laughing, naps, slowing down, rain, my neighbor bringing me saltines for my sick kid, or curling up with a good book.
He is faithful. He’ll show you too.