It’s beautifully complex but sometimes doesn’t feel so beautiful. Oppressive thoughts, low self worth, and speaking defeated words over ourselves make us feel less than.
I fall into bad thinking patterns when I feel stuck and unsure what the right decision is to make. I feel guilty if I make a wrong decision and unsure if I make the decision because I’m unsure how’s it’s going to turn out.
Whew. Feel better about yourself?
I found some wisdom from this crappy thought life yesterday.
My son woke up with a sore throat, he’s gotten strep before, so I wanted to see how he felt once he was up for a bit. Not seeing much change, I decided to keep him home.
Thirty minutes later it was pretty clear he had a little cough, but was feeling fine, no fever. He confirmed he felt fine.
So we decided to get him to school even though he was thirty minutes late.
As I was driving home from dropping my son off late, I realized I didn’t feel guilty. Confirming how I felt, truth came: This was not a pattern for my kid faking sick or crying because he didn’t want to go to school. He’s pretty tough. And it really wasn’t a big deal for him to miss one day.
NEW THOUGHTS! Truthful thoughts.
I thought, hey I can change my mind!
We can change our minds. Turning this into a spiritual truth, we can take our crappy thoughts captive and make them obey Christ. We can change.
(Note: see Jen Wilkins book “None like Him.” She writes a whole chapter on how this.)
This simple reality of changing my mind to take my son to school opened wide the lie: this won’t work for you, you can’t change your mind, you are stuck.
I can’t do this on my own, but with Christ I will.
The weapons I get to use aren’t more strength on my own part, but trusting in a mighty God who never gets tired helping me to do His part!
He will never fail us.